It's been 2 weeks and 1 day but I am
finally getting around to posting the eventful day of Burke's birth for all the family and friends who live out of town! I tried to be as short as possible!
4:00am: woke up, showered, and was able to eat a light breakfast (last meal for quite a while)
5:30am: Brennan and I were checking in at the hospital and getting into the room
6:15am: pitocin was started! This is supposed to "trick" my body into beginning contractions. The nurse said I was having some small contractions on my own when I came in that morning. I was barely 1cm upon checkin.
After this, Brennan and I sat and watched tv, he watched movies on the ipad, I cat-napped a little while some family members trickled in and out.
My doctor came in that morning around 8:30 to check my progress. I was having contractions about every 4-5 minutes on a regular basis. Whoo hoo!
12:00: my doctor came back to check on me. My contractions were about every 2 minutes, but then I would go 6 or so minutes without any. So they upped the pitocin. I had made no progress.
3:30: the doctor comes back in. Still no progress. Contractions were close, but not regular. I, at this point, was in discomfort - but not pain. I was not on any medicines at this point to control pain. This couldn't be a good sign.
*Did I mention I was STARVING at this point? Water just wasn't doing it for me. But I didn't have an option.
At this point, we began to ask her "ok, what now...this clearly isn't working". She said she would give it 2 more hours and see. The pitocin was nearly doubled of what they normally put anyone on. If that didn't work -- we needed to talk about a c-section.
I lost it. I cried. I was so upset! I did NOT want a csection. I wanted to be able to have skin-to-skin with my baby boy as soon as he came out. Brennan and I wanted Brennan to be able to cut the umbilical cord. I wanted to be awake and aware of what was going on (but of course after an epidural). I was most upset because I knew that if we went that route - it would be at least 30 minutes before I would be able to feel and hold my baby boy. I was so upset.
Brennan and I talked with the nurse (who was absolutely amazing!) for a while so she could explain exactly what would happen.We wanted to be prepared. I also asked my doctor if she would ever be "off" and I would have another on call doctor deliver Burke. NO! She was amazing! She said she would not leave me - she would see this through. (even if it meant going home to just change if it would be a late night....who by the way had 3 kids at home sick with the flu)
5:15: my doctor comes back in. No progress. None. We asked her for her honest opinion. She told me we could wait it out, but we might be waiting until Wednesday. She recommended a csection. Brennan and I trusted her and said ok.
At this point, things are very blurry! They moved FAST! Within minutes Brennan was in this fancy get-up
My amazing nurse was also now in her gear and my doctor was off to get her partner and scrub up. They put me in sterile clothes, pushed my parents out the door, and rolled us out. (Literally, this was happening in seconds). They pushed a few more bags of liquids into my IV (I think I had at least 6 bags of fluids...) By this time I was beyond tears. It was happening. There was not time to get upset. It was what it was. I had gotten my crying out between 3:30-5:15
No, not the best picture -- but I know later in life I will appreciate the picture and memory
They wheeled me back into the OR and made Brennan wait outside while they administered the epidural. It really wasn't as bad as I had thought. However, there is NO way I could have done it without my nurse. She simply was my angel that day! While they gave me the epidural, I hugged her and squeezed her and buried my head into her chest. She was a lifesaver. But, I made it.
Instantly, I went numb. It was weird. I could not feel anything from my neck down. I could move my head from side to side but that was it. I saw my doctor walk in with her partner, followed by Brennan. I knew it was go time.
They then blocked my view with the big blue curtain and ran warm air over my neck. Which was good because I was shivering at this point! Luckily, my amazing husband bought me and put on my fuzzy socks and that helped!
5:56pm baby Burke was born! Yes, less than an hour from the time we decided to go with the c-section, our precious boy was here.
I felt a lot of pressure, tugging, and pulling and etc. But never pain. They talked our way through the process. I couldn't see anything of course. Brennan sat by my head and supported me and talked to me the whole time. I couldn't tell you how, because I was extremely drugged, but he was a pro. When they were ready to pull Burke out they let Brennan get the camera ready and snap away. We got some really amazing pictures of him joining the world. (I'll save those for privacy)
They let Brennan get up and walk over to where Burke was placed in a warming bed to get cleaned off, weighed, and measured.
They then handed our precious boy to Brennan to bond and walk him over to me. They then took Brennan's camera and started snapping away for us. Again, I can't even say how amazing the entire hospital staff was! They captured some really great photos for us in these moments.
I finally got to meet my little boy! I didn't even shed a tear. I was just so excited it was all over. He was here, he was safe, he was healthy, all was right with the world! What an amazing moment!
15 minutes later, I was all sewn up and they were cleaning up. I got rolled into a hospital bed, sat up, and was given my little angel. I still couldn't feel much (a little in my arms) but it was amazing to be able to hold him and kiss him and know he was here!
They wheeled me back to the room, washed up Burke with his first bath, and I began to get some feeling back! They allowed the family to come in and see us and see Burke. I REALLY don't remember much of this. My eyes were the heaviest they have ever been in my entire life. I couldn't barely keep them open. There was over 20 people there supporting us (so my mom says) but I don't remember. I think I was falling asleep with everyone in the room!
As soon as I was able to wiggle my toes, they moved us up to our permanent room. The family followed shortly there after. I was still hungry. It had been too long and too stressful of a day to not have food. I asked for dinner. Nope! Clear liquids diet only. UGH! My dinner that night consisted of jello, gummy bears, and chicken broth. No joke. Thats really what they brought me. I was so tired I ate it and passed out. around 11pm.
I will share more about Burke's stay in the hospital at a later time. This post was long enough! :)